early christmas buffet

had buffet at parkroyal hotel last sat. we had fun! still waiting for the rest of the pics.

the gals..syl doing her best imitation of korea.

me and keri, she was in a tight va-voom tube dress tat day.

someone is an "extra" here

*tickle tickle*...*chuckles giggles*

yes, man!

watched the yes man with syl and gang last fri. well, we dun realli have a gang la, but if we do, then syl is the gang leader!

anyway ya ya, there were 5 of us. syl, keri, joa, jeremy and me! as u can see, i was sort of a lightbulb. originally they had alry bought tickets, but since i was a last min addition, the tickets they bought for me was seated alone behind them. i must have look pathetic enough, bcos joa n syl separate themselves so i can sit with syl. poor joa sat in the back by himself which i thought was quite gentlemenly of him.

the show was quite inspiring and funny. its abt saying yes to opportunities in life, but most of all, its abt saying yes when your heart is saying yes..sounds quite corny...but Yes! YES!

after the show, we went for drinks nearby at an open-air kopitiam. had a heated discussion with them abt marriage. more precisely, the conversation was about cheating in a marriage? hmm. mayb my views bordered on the extreme, but then this is one of the few things tat i strongly feel abt. i am stubborn i admit. this will be a weakess and a strength.

christmas eve

ok i am late for work today. cun wake up bcos the room was too dark. no doubt i slept realli late the nite bfore, but it wun have affected me bcos i usually sleep late anyway. but bcos of the rain, my room turned out realli dark and i din wake up as usual bcos there was no sun.

n i was onli supposed to be late for 15mins. but then the mrt train screwed up, n by the time i reached amk i was pretty pissed, so i went down to hail a cab. then the cab queue was freaking long and so i went up to take the mrt again.

by the time i reach office it was 9.35am. my office has this weird policy of fining people who are late. the later you are, the more fine u have to pay. i thought its just the fine i need to pay, but turns out, i need to work an extra half day as well.

$40 fine + an extra half day of work. cool. so upsetting to get this on xmas eve. well. hope this wun spoil my mood cos its christmas after all.

just grin and bear with it lo. be meeting him later after work at sim lim to buy his new computer, bring to his house, then we r going to my relative's bbq. a quiet christmas. its going to be a new year soon and a new beginning, hopefully.

trying to psych myself up..so EVERYONE... .......

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!~~~~

survey call? ya rite

one incident happened recently tat made me all riled up. there was this guy who called me from a private number while i was outside eating dinner.

he had claimed that he was calling on behalf of Breast Cancer Foundation for a survey, and that i just need to answer a few questions.

I ask him outright how am i supposed to know if he is telling the truth as he is calling me from a private number. he replied that they were supposed to remain annoymous(BULL!!!!!!SHIT!!!!!)

anyway i told him i am not doing the survey(who knows wat he would ask) because there is no way for him to verify, and so tats the end of tat.

and so i called up the Breast Cancer Foundation office to check yesterday. firstly the staff told me they do not use guys to conduct surveys, then i could heard her sniggering on the phone when i came to the part abt the guy explaining he had to remain annoymous.

so ladies, next time if u ever encounter such a call, please tell him with confidence to go eat shit.

christmas shopping

going out soon to meet Carrie, we be heading out to town together for a short while as she need to buy some bling bling for her company D&D. haven had much time to do shoppin since i am workin noon shift for almost the whole of the wk, which resulted for me a mad rush to bugis junction after i finished work at 9pm, or during my dinner break where i had to eat my dinner while walking ard.

but sadly, the short span of time for shopping means i haven produced any christmas presents for anybody yet.

so here is hoping i come back home with some results! :)

fridays

he stood there forlornly with a metal donation tin
throngs of people walking past him, lost in their own world
he is invisible

to acknowledge him means you are expected to donate a penny
who cares?

its friday after all and people are out to party
there he stood forlornly at a corner
Invisible, holding a tin of pennies

subject to irritated looks from passerbys tat deemed him as a pest
blocking their way out to party
they went out of their way to avoid him
its friday after all

minutes before, i stepped away from him too
cos its friday after all
a reflex action it is, cultivated from years of looking at the ground
instead of the needy

tats the way it is after all

but its friday and more people need to be happy

i walked up to him wordlessly
inserted a two dollar note into his small metal tin

his face lighted up like a christmas tree
his grin stretched like miles
he wished me with all his heart a very nice day

for the money tat wouldnt belong to him

how easy it is to light up someone's day
without nary a word
n a measly two dollar note

ramblings

Is it wrong to want to be happy?
Is it wrong to have expectations?

I do not want the nightmares to translate to real life
I worry
Confused, wondering
But there is nowhere to turn
My choice is mine and mine alone
The path I tread, no one leads me
Someone is far behind me

I need to stop, retrace my steps
Or just stop. stop.
Or just go. Go.
Go far away where its too late to regret.

The Heart Test

Your result for The Heart Test...

Slave to Emotions

You are 40% Independent, 90% Idealistic, 70% Intimate, and 100% Indulgent!

The Slave to Emotions

Dependent, Idealistic, Intimate, Indulgent


You are the most emotional of hearts, the Slave to Your Emotions. You crave love, and have high standards for love. You are very intimate and value harmony with a mate. Sometimes you may feel that you are over-emotional and see this as a curse at times, because you are so emotionally-charged, and you so greatly desire love. You might want to break the emotional chains that bind you, but find that the ideals of love and intimacy are firmly shackled to you and cannot be severed.


Matches for the Slave to Emotions:


The Bleeding Heart

The Bleeding Heart is idealistic and indulgent as you are, and just as love-needy, making for lots of shared common ground. You'll also find the Bleeding Heart to be more passionate and fun-loving, something that at first might turn you off, but you will find this will provide a perfect balance to your intimate nature.


The Heart of Gold

The Heart of Gold values harmony and unity just as you do, and shares your ideals of love and intimacy, but is more independent. The Heart of Gold will never leave you and always be there to love you, and this above all else you will appreciate. The Heart of Gold's loving nature will make you feel as if you have found someone to help carry your rattling emotional chains, and that they are glad to do it.


The Patron Saint's Heart

The Patron Saint's Heart craves love just as you do and value harmony and togetherness as well, but is more down-to-earth and passionate than you. However, you will value these more sensual qualities, and the Patron Saint's more protective and loving nature will make you feel loved needed, something value greatly.




Your exact opposite is The Lord's Heart.




Avoid Explicits when possible. They're open and frank nature is contrary to yours. You may also want to avoid Independents unless they have other qualities you seek to balance them out, as you are a person who craves closeness with another person.

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i miss ktv

i am missing ktv...had to reject two separate grp ktv outings last sat cos its too ex as they are singing in the nite...plus the midnite fare its gonna cost at least AT LEAST 50 bucks. have to save up......so i have to forego my pleasure...... :(

y is it everyone is so rich to go ktv in the nite time huh?

or am i the only weirdo who wans to save money by going in the morning or noon?

recent movies i've watched

Been watching more movies recently, since my sis had supp me an Amex card that would offer discounts on the movie tickets plus a FREE bag of popcorn(yipee!~)anyday of the week.

So far we have watched Zack and Miri make a porno, Cape no. 7 and Bolt. I would say Zack and Miri is quite funny in a vulgar and coarse way. Its suppose to be a spoof of porn movies, i quite enjoyed it..cos my mind is not so clean anyway haha.

Bolt was recommended to me by Keri, who loved the movie. The dog is really cute!~ Its heartwarming and funny..it had me laughing out loud and stompin my feet at some parts. Perfect for animal esp dog lovers.

Cape no. 7 was so-so only..despite the gd reviews, somehow it din really get to me. i find it a bit draggy at some parts la..but overall is ok.

My next target is Twilight!~

p.s of course the best thing is the person tats accompanying me, never mind the movies.

My dream guy

Raymond Lam aka Lin Feng ROCKS~!~~

Tall, dark, handsome...and he can sing!

I am postively drooling... ..(cue drool splashing on the floor)

Heard this song recently on tv..romantic...i am gonna learn it for ktv!~

this is the mandarin version...


and the canto version....

seldom seen, deeply missed

Mum's bd

The bd dinner was abruptly changed to a chinese restaurant in Marina Square called Pu Tian. The food was so-so only...among all the restaurants i went with my family so far, this one ranks at the bottom few. Anyway i was the only one who din like it, my family had no complaints.

At Pu Tian after eating...the waiter tat took the pics for us was tasked to engage baby to look at the camera by waving a plastic fork AND taking the photos for us at the same time. Needless to say, he failed very badly.


After tat, we went to this place called Marina Barrage. Never heard of it, apparently its just opened a few mths ago. The place is a reservoir/dam frm wat i understand, which is very little. But the place is kinda cool! The weather tat nite was reminiscent of cameron highlands/genting, and the wind was the type tat would blow away ur wig if u have any. Shiok, cos my hair is real. If u like to play in water, then this is the place for u.


Then its off to home sweet home to cut the bd cake.

short updates for this wk

just some short updates bfore i rushed out to meet kathy (presumely) since she went missing halfway while toking to me online. Today is my mum's birthday, so my family will either be going out for dinner at ding tai feng or the ulu crabs eating place at amk.

this is a week of ups and downs, as is every wk. one thing about me is tat my mood tends to change pretty fast, and the person tat usuallys get to see tat side of me is, lets put it, suay. i ever dropped tears while eating a normal dinner in a foodcourt, n everyone must have thought we were quarelling, but nope, its just me upset abt abt something totally unrelated to him. it's getting better though, i am trying to motivate myself and he is constantly there for me which i really appreciate loads.

anyway summary of this wk, i din go for the family holiday, but i took a bloody mc on wed and got screwed for it. its all rather stupid..i went to see the doc for a follow up consultation on sun and he ask me to go for an xray on mon to check out my lungs. he wanted to give me an mc for mon but i told him i had some stuff to do so i delayed my xray till wed. anyway on tues at work i was quite upset abt some stuff tat me n my new colleages found out, regarding commission structure etc, which the company was not upfront abt. the motivation for work was deflated, and i decided to go for the xray as arranged by the doc cos before tat i was in two minds abt delaying it further. well i got screwed for the mc for a reason tat i was not happy abt. and i had to spend further money bcos after the xray i had to go to the doc again to get the mc tat i was supposed to b given on sun. but just time time round they have to charge me for consultation again and i am pretty unhappy abt spending extra money n i shd have taken the bloody mc on mon when they offered to me so y din i???

anyway the one day mc give me rest and recharge me to motivate myself. cos i am sure if i went to work on tat day my face would be a black one. but i have to reiterate, i am very unhappy with some of the rules and regulations of my company. i am unhappy with the commision structure tat they failed to be upfront abt, and the various cost-cutting measures that they implemented and which everyone there seems to tink its normal. the only thing i am happy abt is that its an opportunity for me to brush up on my knowledge and reading, so i shall make the most of that.

the short updates don't seem tat short after all, and i really need to rush out!

sylvia's wedding

Some pics taken from my hp...blurry though.

The earliest christmas present ever

I have a new lcd moniter for my computer, yipee!~ It's from a special someone as an early christmas present.. :D

Well well, it's certainly the earliest christmas present i have ever received...more on tat later. Still trying to get used to the screen as its wide-screen and not the square screen i have grown accustomed to. Happy happy.....

visit to doc again

Went to sakae sushi with mum for lunch as well as a follow up visit to the doc. i have alry finished my antibiotics last wk but doc checked my throat and it's still inflamed although its better nw, so i am given another 3 more days of antibiotics.

Been feeling like an idiot sometimes at work..since i cun hear properly with my blocked ear and had to get people to repeat what they are saying sometimes. otherwise i try to pretend i understand cos its a hassle to keep askin people to repeat. doc say it might be due to one of the throat tubes linked to the ear that's causing it..so i need to moniter for a few more days if it will clear up.

also doc refer me to get an x-ray of my chest to confirm its nothing serious. so i have to go down to another place to get the x-ray done..again he wanted to give me an mc tomlo n also for me to take the x-ray tomlo, but i dun tink there is any rush la..so i postphoned to wed.

my family will be in msia tomlo for holiday, too bad i cun join in...tried to get my sis to delay the dates but she checked and there are no dates available. and i cun go cos i have to finish up some work stuff and give the status by wed. too bad lo, i am disappointed but too, too bad. :(

Family holiday Part 2

Love (from Captain Corelli's Mandolin)

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then
subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out
whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable
that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not
breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of
eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince
ourselves we are.

Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away,
and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we
had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty
blossom had fallen from our branches, we found that we were one tree and not
two."

bro's bd..Happy birthday to u~

was lying in bed relaxing last nite listening to music when i realized it's my bro's bd and sat up with a start. looked at my hp, its just past midnight. so mum n i called up my bro in msia and sang a happy bd song to him..hope he was surprised. there wasn't any celebration as he was working..my sis was mentioning tat we see how as there is a family outing to msia next wk. but i am still pondering if to go..both days fall on a wkday due to my bro and his wife's work shedule. who goes and take holiday on wkdays rite? sigh.

my baby niece has gone back to msia for a wk, wondering if she still recognizes us when she comes back..or just stare at us blankly.

been out 4 days of the wk with a certain someone...mostly just for dinner. he's been going on abt how i dunno how to take care of myself blah blah..which he has a point. but its nice to have someone to care for me.

visit to docter

Guess wat? I went to see doc yesterday on the way to work for some ear drops cos i had a blocked ear, and check if i have any ear infection. As an afterthought i ask the doc for some cough med as well, since finally i have a chance to see doc instead of self-medicating on people's leftover med...ahha. Anyway he did a check on my throat and found out i have throat infection..my throat was still inflamed. So i was also prescribed antibiotics and given an MC as well. It prob explains y my cough plus the daily on/off sore throat was ongoing for so long ba..been two mths? Well, hoping it can all go away with the dose of antibiotics. Starving...meeting kathy nw for lunch woohoo~

my personal drawers

Wat happenened was that a certain someone had opened one of the drawers underneath my bed out of curiousity since we were supposed to do some cleaning up. Hence i advised him not to since i remember i usually put some of my more personal stuff in the drawers. A few nites ago while lying in bed n unable to sleep, i decided to check out exactly wat i have inside the drawers for fun. (since i haven touched them for a long long time.)

Some of the stuff:

1. A christmas card dated last year

2. A pen and journal that i bought early this year. Only two entries were penned inside, after i discovered how horrible my handwriting was. And it doesn't seem very "pro" to keep striking off words after mispelling it.

3. An old wallet my sis bought for me.

4. Another little notebook with pen tat i used to pen my entries in. (hmm...din know i was into this)

5. A empty angbow packet with birthday greetings written by another one of my aunts. (frm my bd last yr. )

6. The previous hp accessory strap that was tored out during a bd party some mths back.

7. A pair of movie tickets dated last year.

Some other weird stuff i found in my other drawers:

8. A little plastic bag filled with Barbie clothes. *gasp*

9. A little plastic bag with little soft toys INCLUDING Barbie herself. *GASP*

10. Some bags that i never saw before and not even mine. (what are they doing in my room? plus the many other stupid things in my room that dun belong to me but take up space, courtesy of my mum)

11. A sorta UFO looking room lamp that throws different lights all over the room. Tats one of the bd gifts from my 21st bd i supposed? I really hope its usuable, cos i really like it. But somehow everytime i put it in my room, my mum would store it away somewhere without telling me. I already suspected long ago that she used to snoop around in my drawers without letting me know. And it's a fact i alry confirmed long ago as well..i supposed tats y i haven been touching my drawers tat "supposedly" contains my personal stuff. For one thing, some of the things i remember putting in are not inside, for another, i find the most ridiculous things i dun even remember putting in inside. It's disgusting, i dun even find it a point to talk to her abt it..much more asking her where did my other personal stuff go to....bcos for her, there is no such a thing as privacy. Wish there was a place that i can put under lock and key.

Your result for The OkCupid Kissing Test...

The Traditionalist

You are 41% Passionate, 58% Romantic, and 47% Experienced!

Traditionally AWESOME.

Ah, the Traditionalist. You like your romance old-school, and there's something really refreshing about that. You're sweet and hopeful, but you also have high standards. You don't have a ton of experience, but you do have an uncanny ability to make your make-out partner feel like the center of the universe, and EVERYONE likes that. Your Romance rating of 58% is pretty high, and the fact that you're 41% Passionate suggests that you're a great kisser who also manages to keep a cool head. This means that when you do find people who meet your standards, you give them the royal treatment. Well played.

You're cautious, thoughtful, and considerate. You value the rituals of courtship and treasure first kisses. You don't kiss too aggressively, and you enjoy tender, affectionate kisses with a long-term partner. The thought of a slobbery make-out with a relative stranger leaves you cold, and when you're in the moment, you're more focused on the quality of your partner than their kissing technique. Because you're so choosy, you haven't had tons of experience, and you're probably cool with that.

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1st step

Its a milestone. Baby knows how to walk nw! (Erm...not exactly walk la...tottering is a better word.) And her 1st step was towards me~! so is the 2nd step, 3rd step, 4th step, 5th step 6th....7.........8............ :)

Sure, her legs are still wobbly, and the most she can walk/totter is 4 steps before falling into my arms. BUT from being able to stand for a few secs to standing now for a few mins, TATS an achievement too, whoo~~

Full of pride and beaming smiles, tats me.

Your result for What Your Taste in Art Says About You Test...

Non-conformist, Visionary, and Independent

5 Abstract, -16 Islamic, 2 Ukiyo-e, 2 Cubist, -5 Impressionist and -20 Renaissance!

Abstract art uses a visual language of form, color and line to create a composition which exists independently of what may appear to others as visual realities. Western had been underpinned by the logic of perspective and an attempt to reproduce an illusion of visible reality. It allowed the progressive thinking artists to show a different side to the world around them. By the end of the 19th century many artists felt a need to create a 'new kind of art' which would encompass the fundamental changes taking place in technology, science and philosophy. Abstract artists created art that was diverse and reflected the social and intellectual turmoil in all areas of Western culture.

People that chose abstract art as their preferred artform tend to be visionsaries. They see things in the world around them and in people that others may miss because they look beyond what is visual only with the eye. They rely on their inner thoughts and feelings in dealing with the world around them instead of on what they are told they should think and feel. They feel freed from the tendancy to be bound by traditional thought and experiences. They look more toward their own ideas and experiences than what they are told by their religious upbringing or from scientific evidence. They tend to like to prove theories themselves instead of relying on the insight or ideas of others. They are not bound by common and mundane, but like to travel and have new experiences. They value intelligence, but they also enjoy a challenge. They can be rather argumentative when they are being forced or feel as if they are being forced to conform.

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Ambiguity

Is it possible to learn

How to care and yet not care?

Since love has two faces

Hope and despair

~Joni Mitchell~

Partyworld at Liang Court

Date; 31st Oct

Location: Clarke Quay

Activities: went for a 4hr ktv session at Liang Court Partyworld in the noon. The outlet just opened a few mths ago. Have to say the decor was quite nice..diff from the usual outlets. More classy and same pricing. After dinner, walked ard Clarke Quay as it was nite of Halloween. Saw quite a few people decked in costums(super mario, the usual angel, devils etc). Sat on the bank of the the river watching the scenery n the people who actually have the guts to sit on the reverse bungee jump...and come out of it alive.

a short update

not in a good mood. it's the comments made by some of my frens tat disturbs me. i do tink i might be oversensitive but still, can't help feeling indignant or wronged. still deciding if i shd vent it out or just swallow and let it pass. after all, tats wat i do best.

gonna be attending a wedding tomlo and sun. sat will be a clean-up of my room, with a certain someone helping out. next tues meeting kennedy for dinner, and next sat is someone's bd celebration. hmmm but come to tink of it, i might b going holiday with my family next wkend. better check it out. still trying to sort out my previous posts, arrggh.

a year n 4 now.

How to fully utilize a pram

From the back

Sideways

And front

Park Outing

My cousin Ling came over in the yesterday in the late noon to fetch Wanting. So all of us decided to go for a walk at Admiralty Park since my sis has been harping on us to visit it this wkend anyway.

After that we proceeded to Cwp for dinner. And surprise surprise! My cousins Wei and Hau stumbled on us at the food court, its like a relatives gathering man...then Ling went hme with them, while me, mum and sis went to NTUC to get some groceries. It's always a good idea to buy groceries when you have a pram.

Wasn't feeling too good and going out made it worse cos when i got back home, i had the feeling of dying and was going ard the hse like a zombie. After some rest, feeling better now. Frens have commented i seem to keep getting sick, but tats just cos i have fully recovered from the last time i was ill la. Been taking cough med n lozenges etc until now.

Shixing and Tyson ask me to go dblo as well, but i dun have the mood to go. Still have to dress up..which i am lazy to do so. No energy, need recharging. Hope they have fun. Was supposed to go down Jesslyn hse cos Keri was there as well, but din go in the end cos my eyes was hurting. I probably will take out the lash extentions tomorrow, its not for low mantainence girls like me. All i wan is to rub my eyes in peace la. And not have my eyes stinging whenever i rinse my face. It bloody hurts ok.

This pond is so murky and the water is caking up...eeewwwww......

Group pic

Both the babie's expression very funny haha

With my cousin Ling( she is only 19!) who is Wanting's mummy.

Me and sister


Wanting stood there for ages looking at that little brown poodle and deciding if to touch it.

Took this pic of Wanting a split second before she fell down on the ground.

Mummy and daughter

Wanting throwing a tantrum.
Trying to suck up to mummy.

Walking is good exercise!


An act of generousity....

Baby is seemingly feeling bored..understandable cos she is trapped....

Baby: I can only play with my socks....

Baby: why? Oh Why?!

Looking forelorn

So she did some twiddling with her fingers

Did some stretching
Baby: uggh! uggh! hoi!

And lastly some stretching exercises to lift up her mood.
Baby: this? ha! easy piece of cake.

Being a pacifier

Wanting is staying over at my hse today. Just finished pacifying her, its the first time i saw her threw such a terrible tantrum. After my aunt had left, she was clinging onto the door and wailing loudly and abt to roll on the ground each time we attempted to hold her.

So i tried to distract her by playing hide and seek with her, then she finally allowed me to carry her. But still crying...so bo bian have to sing to her. I saty down on the ground with Wanting holding her arms ard my neck tightly and baby just beside looking at us quizzically. So each time i finished a song, i tried to loosen Wanting to sit down on her own and she started to cry and wrapped her arms ard my neck again. Had to sing and sing to pacify her then baby started crying and i have to sing louder so both of them can hear. I felt like an idiot somehow..bocs my mum was doing her chores calmly in the kitchen and my sis was still sleeping in her room. Yet i am stuck with them little people who were abt to cry any momment if i stopped singing..stressed.

Finally my mum came out with some cakes for them to eat and i can escape to the kitchen to have a drink. ~phew~

After Wanting cooled down, she started being a big sister to baby.