A thread posting

Was searching for something on Google, and unexpectedly it threw up this forum thread posted by a girl. http://www.flowerpod.com.sg/forums/index.php?showtopic=56585&st=0

I feel for her, I really do. I posted a reply for her, though not sure if she is able to see. But in any case, I done my part. Below is what I wrote. I din include all the points she bought up cos then it be awfully long, but I am still hoping it will help her if just abit.

Dear xtin77,

I hope its not too late for me to reply to this thread. Hope u are feeling better now. Just to say I understand and empathise with you.

I have read up on depression as well as suicides linked to depression before. Those who have not suffered from depression will not understand what you are talking abt. Its when you have a cloud of gloom hanging over you ALL the time, you can't seem to cheer up, or even if you do, its fleeting and u sooner lapse back to that dreary world.

Those suffering from severe depression..you can tell them there is a light at the end of the tunnel, but its not that they don't want to listen, they want a light at the end of the tunnel as well. They'll look and look as far as they can, BUT all they can see in front of them is darkness, without even a shred of light.

Depression is an illness, and its not as easy as, say someone asking you just to snap out of it. And the main reason for people commiting suicide, its like a weighing scale. If your pain EXCEEDS your threshold of pain or coping capacity, that's when you want to end it all just to get away from the pain.

And the pain? It might be a shard of glass that pierces your heart so deeply that it stays embedded, and you can't get it out no matter how hard you try. Or an cruel invisible hand that clutches your heart so tightly, you can't breath, you can't sleep. It chokes you up, and you are left fighting for your breath. Or just that sharp throbbing pain that wakes you up, even in your dreams. No matter what you do, its ALWAYS there.

I might not have been in the exact same situation as you do, but I do know that from one person's viewpoint of any event that he/she might deemed as stupid/silly, to another person that may be worthy of him/her to stake their life on. Different people see and handle things differently. If you are a person that makes your decisions based on your feelings, then another person who makes their decisions based on logic and facts will not be able to understand where you are coming from.

If you are still hoping for that guy to come back to you and that he is so special to you that no other guy will do, I have a suggestion. Things might not likely change in the present, but there is no saying what will happen in the future. As long as you are alive, there is still hope. Why not you give yourself a time period of a year or so, THEN reevaluate what you feel for him.

You might find that time heals all wounds, but some just take an extremely long time that's all. That guy might realize he loves you after all, or another guy might just entered into your life that you loved as deeply. As long as you are alive, there is a future, and who knows what the future might bring? Take care.